why do people do this stuff?.. why do they cheat?..why do they even bother to sleep with someone that is married?.. why dont they ever think?..im talking to much....

and when you get caught, do you tell the real tuth becoz ur afraid you might get hurt more.., or do u tell the truth becoz you are supposed too..? what makes you think he wont beat you even if you do tell the truth?...why did you even do this in the first place....? do people think anymore...?think about the consequences that is gonna happen after the problem....?

if u knew ur marriage was gonna be a problem since the first day he layed his hand on you, why didnt you walk out the door..? why didnt you tell him, get lost, i dont wanna ever be with you ever again.....why do you choose to accept apologise....and act as though nothing went wrong??

wanna talk bout my friends......

i do love my friends sometime....
but sometime i feel like im lovin myself....i've always kept asking "do my friends love me"?....
do they care about me...bout my feelings....
i wanna tell u about them personaly....what they like...how the act..especially how they treat me!!!!!

1. this is haney...i know her bout 2 years now...we live near to each other....her house just beside my house...even tho we were neighbors...we never know each other....then we've met at highschool...when i was just form 4...since that we've become bestfriends..."...she's nice to me...she also bought me everything...especially when it came to food..she love treat me with delicious food...but i dunno why..sometime i feel like it is not ebough....i dont need that..all i need is care, love from a good friends.....she's a talkative person...she also sometime love to showing off......show all the good stuff she has....but she's my friends...i cant say that....everybody love her...and when im with her, they not asking me...instead they asking her....about everything incluing bout what i know.....that she doesnt know.....she also sometime fight with me..and you know what she wanna win it....so i gave up and let her win....i dont want small thing destoy our friendship...love hny

second best friend of mine is yusry...i know him bout 5 month now....even tho we barely known each other but we really close....like we known each other like 5 years....i like yusri....we all called him yus.....everyone like to be friends with him...maybe bcozhe is so damn funny..he love making joke..making funny faces....and his humour brought light to us....but sometime....i realize joke is not the way.......too much joke can destroy people feelings...its not happen to me maybe to someone else.....i dont know.....maybe....but overall he is a really nice guys....unlike other guys i know.....they all rubbish....

3. third is nana....funny petite girls...i also know her bout 5 month at orientation day....frst time i met her...she is unny..she love to laugh....she is nice to me...always ask how am doing today......she n haney is the same...all they do is just gossip 24/7....and i never hear wat they talking bout..they would never let me hear it....its annoying..hehehe...hellloooo guys im not a rubbish...a human....so treat me like one.....but i know nana is a nice girl....she always help me alot in several things....thanks.....luv u too

4. fourth is.....is faqih...aka rudy...he is nice too...but i hate when hes start talking....all is rubbish..i dont understand a word he says.....he talk like an old people...lie my grandfather....rubbish....one thing i hate and scared is when he start talking about SEX.....we all hate it....and ewwwww...last couple days he talk sex about "threesomes"..OMFG...no one talk about that...ewwwww....thats all rubbish....on 1st sem..hes all this innocent nice guys...and now he's like different...he not like the old rudy....helllooo...wat r u doin with our old rudy...where is the old nice rudy.....pleeees u gotta change urself...i hope u change....hopefully

5. this is wan n jojo.....i barely know them...we're not really close at first ...till came in 2nd sem...we all really close..hangout together...but there is one thing i hate bout both off them...all they want to know is girls...and its me...i do everything to help them get to bout girls....im the one help them get the name of the girls....the numbers..and etc...it is annoying..wat do you think i am...a web for"jodoh"....i hate it...especially jojo....i hate it...... iknow its a joke.....but as i said too much joke can destroy people's feelings....but whatever it is they are my friends n i care for them...im sorry if i ever hurt ur feelings...luv u all

poems.....

hope.....

the war in the soil

the seeds are too young to fight

while the eyes breathe
the guilty still no remose

the cobwebs with knots

across the blades of harvest

improper dreams wrinkle the childhood

without any cries

and without any touch

the cradles are left behind

bleeding through

hopeless unconsciousness

it seems hat a rainbow gushes through me.

and rainbow-colored

i leak out onto the hope

a silhouette of the eyes

follow me

to the warmth of times

only the innocence

grows the conception

held in dust

the pain of wisdom

the trust is through hope.

inside each fragrant branch

the colors of love.......

haru haru......(day by day)

my poem

everytime you try to be an angel

that can bring me to heaven

give me life inside of this

change me, help me

from the world

from the universe

bcoz im different

they are different

we are different

not the same

day by day

help so i change

beautifully not the way

but honestly, it is the way

help me so i change

to someone better

i think i can

coz i believe

i can!

day by day