no more flu...no more tonsil....Alhamdulilah

(just a draft)

akhirnya....no more influenza n tonsil....agak sakit la...but doctor say im fine n its just a minor tonsil...not a CANCER...siot weyh klu cancer...seriau aq...not at all...NOOOOO!!!! i really miss my friends...heheh...to all my friends sy mintak maaf klu ade salah silap....heheh (not good at apologizing)....but seriously guys sy kn suke bergurau x ingat dunie...but since wat happen to me b4 it change my whole life...to always appreciate my family n my friends...(background:- my sister is giler nyanyi lgu somebody to love for 2 hours, n x abis2 nk kutuk2 aq, xpe2 arinie ari kau sok ari aq...HAHAHAH!!!) ok continue...seriously miss n syg my friends...to HANEY...ok well maybe u just read my recent post...heheh jgn terase coz u know aq mmg mcm tu...letting out apew yg aq suke...well im not really good at this...IM SORRY...still friends?? hahah ok thats all, sy nak yak2 jap...omg not in public..haha peduli ape aq...see yah dont wanna be yah...;)

i wanna be takin' seriously........

there's another story of my life..every little bump i try to swerve...but nothing gonna save me from this fall out...im talkin' about my friends...i've been livin' for 19 years now...and i never felt what is like to be hold in a friend's hand...a real friend...people these days like to treated others differently...is that what you do..?? god create you to do good to others...

let me start....i have a friends n i do love them...but sometimes i feel like i'm left out from them...maybe because i'm to cocky n different...i don't know...everyone is different in their own way...people keep telling me "you should be proud of urself"...n yes im proud of myself...eventho i being left out from my friends but i have a family...they always support me in every way...but sometime u just wanna get out from ur family n just hang out with ur real friends...i never get the chance to do it...ok well maybe sometimes...

have u ever felt like u hate these people n u just wanna get out from this country n build a new life, a new face, a new hair, n even a new body...so that nobody would find u...i've been in that situation...it's not easy...n rarely cant breath when i think about it...it's been a big tragedy for me...it's like killing urself with painkiller or stab urself with a knife...scary right...!! but i would never do that...

part of me still thinkin' about a friends in life...well let me talk about it..i have a friends...it's been a year n a half now since i know them..they're like a family to me n i love them...who does'nt love their friends...?? but sometime i feel like i just lost a friends...n i always been the last one to now when there's a news a big news...i feel my self like an old book that people don't even care to read it anymore or wrote it...i never thought it gonna end that way...sadness revolves around me...n we all know its never simple never easy never a clean break n no one here would save me...

i never want this to happen...but please i have feelings to...i wanna be takin' seriously by u guys...u guys have to understand...human feelings is not a toy u can play n dress up like barbie...no...all i wanted is i really cant breath without u guys n that i want u guys to really get to know me n be a real friends to me....thats all i hoped would be...so hold a hand guys...